I have written in my other blog on Wordpress.com, about this very same subject of growing closer to the FATHER GOD and HIS son JESUS. We all need to understand the seriousness of not allowing GOD into our lives for being ashamed of our pasts.
I am just adding it here to maybe reach one other person who feels like they are lot and GOD does not love them. But it is not true, for this is a lie that was told to you by the evil one who was kicked out of heaven and does not want any human in there either.
We all have sinned and have come short of the glory of GOD, for this why GOD sent HIS son JESUS as a man here on earth to endure all of the abuse, mistreatment, lack of respect. being chased to be killed by the very same people who wanted HIM dead.
But they did not take JESUS's life, HE gave it and those people did not win the battle for our sins not did the evil one. Never will evil win, for we have a powerful GOD that over looks everything here on earth. Protecting all who love HIM.
King James Version (KJV)
As we get older, it seems we gain ore understanding about what the word says and prayer. Prayer will help us to get closer to GOD with the communication we are building with HIM. The Bible is very clear about depending on GOD and not mankind and the ways of this fallen world. We need GOD 24/7 and every where we be on this earth.
Put on your amour and be fear not. GOD is in control.
I will say that for me, there is a spiritual GODLY righteous "inner happy high" like I feel constantly. Knowing that GOD and JESUS are watching over me at all times. I am saying all of this in this blog post so that this will be shared with you. Give you all encouragement to see the wonder of all that GOD will and has done for you in your life.
Give the GOD of all creation your attention and read his word. If you do not own Bible use the online ones here on the Internet.
Here is a good link: https://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/Bible-Verses-About-Closer-To-God/
Until you can get a hard copy of a good Bible, use your phone or laptop. Easy-peasy. right in the palm of your hand. I like to use the kjv because that is the least changed in words through translations.
Give praise and glory to GOD at all times, listen to GODS word, keep JESUS in your heart and know that HE is the savior if all of mankind. Fins people who love the LORD to be around and stick with them so you will have fellowship and Bible study together. Secular people are a distraction because they are not wanting to study the Bible, they want to live how they want to live. They will stop you if they can from gaining your faith and increasing it from then on. If you work with them or go to school with them .....you really cant avoid them. But do not consider them friends, they don't consider you one either because of the JESUS in you.